Hubei sister story

 Edge of the woman - the story of Beijing Hubei sister break thought the first one is the day dream on Friday morning, go out, the sky fog. This season, Beijing rarely have such weather. according to the newspaper saying, is that what El Nino trouble, including flooding in Southern rare almost continuously for two months, watching large turbidite beautiful manor submerged, green fields faction ocean. On the phone, Jiang Xuemei told me that her home is the hardest hit in Hubei, is that the discharge gate for pumping the flood diversion area . She especially for the home folks are concerned about, pray for them every day. Moreover, there is a way to make her worrying about the people separated by the flood was there, so far no news. They have had some small lumps between the no removed, she would like to use my pen and show their true minds, one channel to the home of relatives gave blessing, the other, she would like worrying about the people that make her tell the person that he could not have occurred in the story, I hope When he saw my blog, understand her difficulties. As long as this, regardless of whether he was coming back to her yet, she regrets. I think my hands would not achieve this clumsy pen hope that Jiang Xuemei large effect, but I can not Funi voice of an ordinary woman in good faith. just out of the car, a woman with short hair, smiling face came, I looked at the table subconsciously Taiwan, seven fifty-nine. She said: ; you are punctual. many years of talking about the same as the old acquaintance. mainly, she said, I did. am generally no job, a busy afternoon. unless leave, I do not rest day. Or so early trouble you ran, I am sorry. Jiang Xuemei sorry smile, his face two shallow dimples. I deliberately glancing at her, do not see a trace of melancholy scene. I know I look is not pretty, but everyone says I have a happy phase, in particular, laughing when the face dimples look good. I like to laugh, smile when happy, unhappy, they also laugh. In fact, my life is not that good, who do not know how hard my heart. Total looking for a person to say, the total can not find the right person. willing to listen to people who do not understand, who do not want to listen to understand, or have no time. Now, everybody is busy with various things, all day around, who rarely sit down and listen to what others say. So, I want to spit on you fast. She suddenly be silent, his face a serious expression. pondered Eqing, she transferred to the question, his head side to side with his mouth. Although I belong to the same county and forest wind, but did not know each other prior to Beijing, do not know this person. I know he was last summer on an Association. say what it's emotional. My the edge of his hometown in the Yangtze River, Wuhan upstream. these years bad weather, particularly rain, always the next stop, and always a flood. home to Beijing to seek government support, launched the work of fellow donations in Beijing. Originally, in accordance with past practice, the Association notified only job there was in Beijing who have participated in, and said plainly, is a little bit as people, secretary of the Secretary ah, ah, editors, journalists, engineers and the like, there are several high official to do. General do not notify people who work in Beijing. happened, liaison is one of my relatives think I have differences with the ordinary work of, let me also to take part in what kind of scene, donate donate a little casually. so, I know Lin wind. a conversation, to know he was a neighboring village, out of the army for two years, to the home of a general drive. out there a lot of our generals, the old, the young have. I like the wind in the forest seat next to, we say that a lot of words to each other are very fond of you. I have a very long time not so very much love to chat with people before. After the meeting, Lin wind so I was waiting, he sent back later to pick me up, General and before long, he really came, a black Audi that is still open. We take a cable car to the Fragrant Hills, This is my first ride was so scared, I dare not look down, heart in his throat to the middle of the time, the cable car suddenly violently bumped and I am scared tip calls out, desperate myself into his arms and hugged him. This is our first hug, the kind of lovers can not be owned hug. In fact, because I was too afraid and hid his arms to find safety. Later, we have dinner together, after dinner, and watched a movie together, he drove me back to the hotel, and before leaving, Lin BP wind left his phone number, call me Air contact with him, I call his office and told him, somewhat nostalgic two parted. The next day at noon, Lin wind called and asked me yesterday, not frightened in the cable car, is not of fear? my face smelling immediately for heat, I do not know how to answer. He seemed aware of my feelings, immediately said he and other day to take me time to play Fust slide, ride the cable car to stimulate more than ten times, a hundred times. He likes to take risks, like stimulating the movement. this character, half from his nature, and half with his military status related. Lin wind told me that he ten years old, and fond of climbing trees, swimming, bird eggs in the hole in the wall in the dig, Sometimes a snake out. He said once he puts his hand, touch a cool thing, his mind a tight, know that your head, but since the hands can not grasp in a release, a release, the snake sprang bites you will bite. he held on to smugglers homeopathic area, pulled out one meter long snake to his horror, the parents Mianrutuse, and he was if nothing had happened. I heard him say, when are scared heart pound wildly. As he and all right, said the snake to eat the eggs, and will not bite. he was so bold children. Jiang Xuemei appreciate the tone in the tone with a woman only for their favorite man would use this talk about tone. So it is not difficult to determine their relationship will have a surprise twist. though later we did not play Fust slide --- --- I can not play but we are gradually exchanges between increased, and the conversation a step further than the step, day by day casual attitude. It should be said, it is easy to understand. because I put it on and forest wind grew up in the same place, are the Yangtze River water to drink blood some common things flowing, but also living in a foreign land, each had each other to find a sustenance. but I kind of relationship with him is really happened the night of the Spring Festival last year. to say who is active who is passive, realistically speaking, should say that I offered him to stay, but in fact it does not matter, we want together, but a man first said to them. New Year period, we did not go home, Lin wind in the armed forces after New Year to my rent a small room to see me. according to the custom home, we did a whole table full of food, as Geer Liang general Tuibeihuanzhan to drink, drink straight tongue tied, he clamored to go, I will to retain half-drunk half awake, he reluctantly left behind. this moment, Needing You, can be done? naturally Dry Wood Fierce Fire, point to the. we did sleep in the bed, through the tipsy feeling the cover, tasting the forbidden fruit. see, he was the first time, confusion and to no avail, but this kind of thing, is no stranger to me. Therefore, I have always felt guilty for him, as if he owed a never debt. is this a debt left in his heart stuttered a difficult untied, and in my soul cast a shadow can not afford this life be undone. Jiang Xuemei slow down the narrative. day night, sober, I face the messy house and a school of whirring around the sleeping man, could not stop my heart filled with a suppression of sadness. even in the most lonely, the most difficult moment, as I rarely have had no unspeakable sadness. I know this sadness does not come from elsewhere, it is the love from just like I did this from my sister, said age should a young man. well, I really love him deeply, like a as the song deeper than the sea, you can not care about age difference. I'm two years older than him and one month, he was over 22 years old this year, Jiang Xuemei face .3 phase was small, but the figure is very mature and graceful with a kinds of woman's charm. However, I can not erase the piece of his mind the dark scars. from your eyes, I know you have guessed the truth. I am married and have a daughter, now three years old the to be in Beijing. I can not tell the forest all this wind. If let him know the inside story, sure to leave me, this is I do not want to see the outcome. I want to marry him, a son with him, too happy family life. but the thought of trying to hide the truth, deceiving his life, I was troubled. one side is the conscience, one side is feeling, I could not weigh the pros and cons, how to strike a balance. I feel it one of his pocket He Yan, a connection to a pumping, my heart was a fierce struggle until the smoked that He Yan, still to no avail. The next morning he got up, it felt very strange, can not remember when That Heyan to pumping no more. After the first opportunity, Lin wind on the last night I'm here, sometimes just making out while I'm left with the troops, after all, more stringent discipline. landlord never asked these things, however, only clamored more a person, to additional utilities. tell the truth, these people, tut, tut, child can not say that one empty break room, over three hundred dollars, but also restricted to the following points a twenty-five watt light bulb. from time to time get eyes looking at you, that little bit to nag to have to add money. This is no surprise, commercial society, the people are grinding hard, how can human face. It is no exaggeration to say that the suburbs of Beijing, a small group of people rely on foreigners to support the rent. I used to live in a household, the peasants turned out to be the suburbs of Beijing, of Peasants, the use of land acquisition costs for a slip cover child cottage. landlord older children with his wife, no work, a son, goof around, the whole family to depend on three free rental, more than a thousand dollars a month income to support themselves. how the newspaper had discussed how the outsiders, simply, no outsiders hard earned money, these people can only Hexibeifeng. It seems, Jiang Xuemei deep feeling on this point, has repeatedly insisted that this view remains in my article. In fact, this is not just a person's point of view her in interviews and I do not know less of prominent outsiders, also earnestly urged people not to have a mouth-discriminatory basis to any locals with foreigners, this is not the gusto of an international metropolis of the public. As a government, outsiders should try to improve treatment and living conditions, such as in a field of very successful people should give priority to solving the problem account, to better play. has been retained in the Jiang Xuemei dimpled cheeks of the two round shallow from the deep, and finally gradually disappeared. a pair of bright eyes dim with the topic of conversion down gradually in the spring of .1994, it seems to be in March, the weather and some cold. I moved a house, as we this situation, moving is often Some things, is the most nerve-racking thing. Every time mentally moving one point adrift Tim sentimental, feel when the city became a well, just my life of optimism, not optimistic, so what? frown is no economy without incident. new home owner only father and son, old man, nearly seventy, the body still in good health, not deaf ears, eyes do not spend . son in his thirties, a bachelor, to work in a factory. I move that day, he went to work. is the old man to help me put stuff in, I will not step on the tricycle. to move those, the old man grumbling , meaning that I give him a little leg muscles to the money. Although not far away, moved north from the south moat, hundred and eighty-meter distance, but the big one elderly age, the weather was cold, ran to and fro the two times, the appropriate thing to pay compensation it should be. So, I gave five dollars the elderly. His son came back from work, listening to old people talk about it, and resolutely put the money back to me and said, go rent the rent, to help go to help This money can not close. I fail to beat him, and had to accept it, and read to the elderly to buy a pack of cigarettes Beijing. Then, he said the weather in Beijing Erotic capricious, or a very cold night and warm during the day, ten multi-degree temperature difference. He's one around the house tidy up tidy up the old stove and chimney, the use of the gap shifts loaded on to me. while installing aside and said, I am a big girl all the way to Beijing from the south, is not easy. These things gave me a good impression. After the fine thinking, from that day onwards, his mind on the germination of that idea must .4 time, I do not go to work this hotel, opened in a self-employed type copy shop typing work at 6 pm each day. I am most afraid of is the evening this time, Beijing got off work, rush home to catch up, his face with a relaxed and warm expression. I have no home, looking for Less than a home. family and friends separated by thousands of miles. I think in the home, this time, homing birds, river bank, the jungle, the smoke curl, a family sitting around the table to eat dinner, watch TV, enjoyable. I do not want to return to that between the cold huts, could not bear the kind of weeping mood. I tried to delay, buy some children to eat fried or buy lunch and worked on children. companions often laugh at my stupid boss is without money, you worthwhile so hard? they do not know how I can be too awkward, they think children excluded me because I give them too hard to increase the survival of the pressure. sisters in the boss's mistress has a special love to pick my thorn , large ear of his boss into the evil of others, please cold to say that I deliberately attempt to win the boss's before dragging a tired unhappy with the return. the landlord's son is probably guessed that my mood, abnormal warmly invited me to his room after work watching TV. He said that people work out of danger, I think you work is one tired. His words, like arrows shot as my point. I first entered his door, really shocked. There is not a mess that in addition to an old 21-inch color TV, and no one decent thing. that the home had only poor, did not think there is such a huge poverty of Beijing people. at the beginning, only he went to work, leaving the elderly at home alone, I was watching TV the past, Slowly, he was at home, I do not care too diffuse. Later, finally took place on that. He raped me. The reason I say that because there was really not my wish. That period of time, Beijing 1 station is broadcasting a TV series, very nice. That night, ah love the old man is probably looking down on love, strength, yawn even the world back to his room sleepy. When the television camera appears on a bed, he suddenly got up and hugged me hard, one will I fell in bed, let me how to fight, he Bu Songshou. He tore my pants above Nianman the blood. Later, I threw him breaking pants face, calling him a bastard son of a bitch, clamored to tell him to go to the police station. He is not angry, just that he liked me and that I am a good girl, and he wanted to marry my wife. calm down a thought, since it have taken place, no problem. but I do not want to marry such a person. Let us put aside his teens than me, no man bigger, more secure, reliable, than those who bother to bring the boys easy to grasp. However, he is absolutely I did not mind the man should marry. from everyday speech and behavior, can not see what point he excels. himself so young, many opportunities for choice, let alone marry a ready-made successful adults, at least, who married a promising it. In other words, is to have individuals on the strength of the people. He is an ordinary shop workers, could not be more mediocre mediocre, work life, apart from eating, do not know anything else. in him, to eat in order to make money, make money to eat. in his room, not to mention the book, and even a deck of cards can not be found. I do not want to become a powerless man behind the role. I think untouchables, but also can not afford to hide? I want to move, he would not let, forcibly took away my ID card and returned to lock my door, I told him anxious, he does not get mad, call him and begged him no use. run into such a shameless person. I know a few old people who he was thirty, and needed a woman. may be that Hancang's seen their homes destroyed, and who love with him? put me a Ruhuasiyu big girl, and he certainly will not easily let go. deadlocked for some time, I'm pregnant. this period, he commandeered me several times, I'm no match for him. may be one of the inert or something, I have come to no longer resistance, all in accord with nature. I am writing to seek the views of family, friends and family that may well be a good thing. Anyway, have to pay three or four hundred dollars a month rent, as they live together as a family, after all, where people also inseparable from the living. so, I will have nothing to say, and can only gradually adjust their feelings, and slowly adapt to their new living conditions. At first, I especially do not want to have sex with him and saw the bed felt disgust, when the last resort, eyes closed, and let him busy as a person in me, then, it not the case, and sometimes, I also took the initiative to him. speaking, everything is a gradual process. someone you do not how you like people slowly accepted his .5 Jiang Xuemei's face became thickened, heavy words like anchor lead my heart, like falling in the deep cold sea. did not think his daughter just born, he made Kong, only 190 dollars a month, I want to breast-feeding children, can not go to work. There are old, under a small, family eat and drink, anxious I almost crazy, every morning, on a white pillow covered with black Wuwu my hair, one by one, so I feel particularly sad. I am a man, when flies carefree, made money, you can go to a chic restaurant, now with his every day to eat fried green onions to pickles. I told him to look for a job do, he would not life and death, suspected loss of face, holding his head in the home nest all day long sigh. his father is also anxious not, secretly sold waste sorting. homogeneous loess buried neck of the elderly, but also to lose the face, at home in his stuffy face down. I thought, this man I can not have a child with him --- Jiang Xuemei while the narrative is rough up the choking interrupted, her tears, not one by one, but Zhixie down piece by piece, so that her whole face mist filled, swaying in the storm as one of the Ku Caihua. She said while crying language in the moist and full of bitter tears. In my repeated persuasion, take newspaper stories Derby, he was barely out of football a job, who thought the night was the rain leaking partial, not long before He had a strange disease began so weak, followed by muscle atrophy gradually, to the hospital for a check, say what the nature of myasthenia gravis, since I did not find out what disease this is. only know that the hospital could not cure. say he a post, the unit is not responsible for medical expenses, even if the responsible part, could get money. and no previous serious illness insurance. can only be resigned, and soon the whole body was paralyzed, even the living can not take care of themselves. I am a weak woman, are appearing small, a company to take care of him so people will not stand, it is miserable, people will soon collapse. He is particularly painful, knowing that can do anything, there are times, he wanted to commit suicide, I have found to be blocked. I think a man should be non-distinct, it was not his fault, as to the future how, I also beyond resurrection. neighborhood aunt who see this situation we also help us think of ways little relief to be relief that reflect the situation to the authorities. there was a neighborhood is a journalist, to write the things our family published in a newspaper article, and aroused the concern of a letter received many condolences, but also people making a donation. While these are utterly inadequate to help, but people take comfort in mind. So, I write the essay has been very reliable. In this way, struggling for some time, completely lost his disease transfer. others difficult to understand, in those days, for me, really struggled to live, as worse than prison. I never forget, and now can recite it. reporter wrote: That, unfortunately, suffering from paralysis of the muscle weakness in the bed of the man. one end of the bed, sat his septuagenarian father, desperate old man hung his head deep, the other head, sat his wife, unkempt, arms hold a thin child, due to lack of milk is cry randomly ... ... standing at a window, especially itchy throat. I quit smoking for three years, but at the moment, I really want to cigarette smoked. After ten minutes, Jiang Xuemei gradually return to calm, his face covered with messy tears. This naturally can not go on the day. He once told me that when he holds me, because I could not bear to be a good acting by the people, he wants to get me, I live a good life together with him, not wanted fell today's end. He does not blame me, hate only God is unfair. his father does not blame me, that I had done all in the future to find a man, but also helped bringing up their children. with him after the divorce, I went back home, rest for nearly a year's time, the body slowly recovered. In consideration of the future I would also like to get married, the family would not let me take my daughter back, tight blockade of the situation I am in Beijing. But I miss children to return to Beijing, took some twists and turns, only in the current work found this hotel .6 Jiang Xuemei side his head, careful thought, and later for a voice said. I think my fate as I character as Daxitaibei. run into the wind so Lin could have been a good boy, a joyful thing, did not think the end is still ��:��ˮһ����. Lin found that it is the wind in this year's I take my daughter to Tiananmen Square to play, Lin was there wind and a group of fellow camera. He thought I was someone's home with the children to make her play, along with aunts and uncles say a picture with a photo. daughter blurted out the crisp out of the ; Mom! know how to interpret, explain and from where, the had to watch his car away. After, I call him, he did not return. call many times, he still ignored. I look for him on the military compound, hunted, and he hid in the room can not see me, and finally it fail to beat, and I met with one hand, frosty attitude. But I do not blame him, it is all my fault. I just want to let him listen to me explain from the beginning, he clutching his ears, than hear a word, Qi Xiuxiu confused rhetoric to accuse me of him, to drag him into the water, Zhi Chamo call me a foul witch, and asked me to roll. I was very sad, what is wrong with me, should be such a roost? Since then, the forest wind to ignore me. I call him a thousand times, he did not return a phone call, and finally the waitress told me that He received a short letter. He said he could not care what I have had the experience, you can not care I'm already a mother of a child, but I absolutely can not tolerate deliberate deception of his. In the letter, he also Tell me this year, troubles me so much flooding in his hometown, his mind uneasy, go back home leave in advance please, let me not call him or the futility of the military compound to look for him. At this time, Jiang Xuemei on I said, she wrote back forest wind. I want to have the opportunity to be able to turn to him, or it is made public, so to understand her state of mind forest wind, know there is a Chiai his women into his collection of her life dreams. came back, I walked out of the MTR, the sun rose, the sky fog has cleared. a group of twisted old man old lady beat drums to Yangko, is for the disaster fundraising. I immediately referred me to RECREATING Metohija of two hundred dollars dedicated to the Disaster Relief Committee set up donation points in the street, I believe that people in disaster areas are in a foreign land will not forget the kindness of the daughter. As in the manuscript Fapai, Lin wind rejoin after business trips, not short-term back, so, with the approval of Jiang Xuemei's consent, hereby Appendix of her letter is as follows: wind: I know I told you already that may not, but I really miss you. Before, I rarely read newspapers, now handle every day, after reading the morning paper to see Evening, watch the above posted message flood. Although you are not sending troops to support the disaster area people, but I know your temper, in that time you will not nothing. When you see the newspaper published a certain Colonel sacrifice, my heart pulling tightly, so you have a fear of accident. Wuhan emergency those few days, I sleep at night, guarding the TV refused to leave, always worried about your safety. CCTV floods in the charity party, who Junsao when holding a baby against her husband on the screen to sing the song That Junsao full of deep admiration, she at least has a way to make the proud husband and know his message, but you have heard from, so I do not know what to do. Now, to the day you should be back on the team, But you still no news, I fear death, dream of you every night back in the dream, wake up but it is empty. wind, you quickly come back, even if you do not forgive me, do not let me day and night for you care ah! If you want to hear that the first , again I can not sing anymore. letter was wet with tears, and then children can not write down. temporarily stop here, okay? to love as I kiss you the last time. like you: May. August 1998 17 II, sewing through life one day a phoenix, from a friend know that they are fellow, Ningbo. According to friends, Tin Fung is a very successful kind of woman. She came early Beijing to begin, and rented a basement gives the mend, and soon opened the Forbidden City, the Forbidden City built a number of stalls rented to Ningbo intelligence and business sense, the day immediately realized that this phoenix is a golden opportunity join together once rented a Pu, business is booming, from extra cash, the day Phoenix has entered the ranks of the Fujie children. Now, the day has a sizable Fung garment factory, has three appearances, in addition to the Forbidden City Wang Pu outside that room, there is a village in the famous Zhejiang, middle and low to the national wholesale clothing and the other in the world-renowned foreign Albemarle Road, the main exports to the Russian and foreign high-end clothing. in accordance with the meaning of residence speaking, the days of Phoenix has not an outsider, it should be said is In the rural outskirts of Beijing to spend 5 million to buy a private ones, and moved into account, after less than two years, the land was expropriated, and give her a two-bedroom, and address of Peasants, into Beijing and cities. other people can do with the hundreds of thousands of things, the day Phoenix District 5 million was spent. To pursue the footsteps of successful days of Phoenix, I propose to step down came her then retrace the footsteps again. Tianfeng readily agreed, and drove her white car that went to Xi Luoyuan Jetta and I together. This is her first stop in Beijing to enter. counting from my grandfather, three generations of my family are living by sewing the first two generations only can be said to be barely make ends meet, to my generation, be regarded with greater improvement. my grandfather since childhood to Shanghai as an apprentice, when the primitive tools, mainly by hand, stitch, particularly the intricate hand effort required consummate skill. Later, the owner of the introduction of the British sewing machine, to the dignitaries on the beach, stars celebrities custom luxury clothes. these people is very demanding, especially those ivan famous actor of cheongsam style, size, excellence, slight negligence, which will lead to dissatisfaction, and even the claim. my grandfather was brought out of the proud owner of his disciples, marketer unique skills, looking for his clothes people are doing, gained high reputation in Shanghai and high society. thirties red stars Center Stage , Golden Melody Zhou Xuan are looking for what he did dress. Unfortunately, after the outbreak of war, populations everywhere, my grandfather returned home under the shelter, only to reappear, etc., did not expect no such opportunities. To keep skills die out, my grandfather taught my dad would been doing this. My dad passed on to me. the late seventies, China has its own production three-line machine. a child, I love my father's tailor shops in the joke. Twelve-year-old bar, sewing machine has stepped very skilled, but also some simple sewing doll clothes. my grandfather was still alive, see I love The Road to carefully cut to teach me. Like a lot of great talent who, as my grandfather was very tall, lived in the country after the hands have never sewn clothing, as in Shanghai for the rich used to be a silk clothing Diaoqiu Each is a masterpiece out of a will, so just for those who bother to do the common cold to hide the ugly underwear. But I think my grandfather is very talented in this respect, stronger than the father's understanding, the ability that he can not be covered in rotten in the coffin, then the hand and teach me the secret. there is no fabric for testing, then with a newspaper, and often the room full of clipped bits of fragmented waste newspaper. I can perfect the basic cut power marketer, is too benefit from the training time. Tin Fung cool to play a little steering wheel, white Jetta from the street turned into a narrow alley, turn left, turn right, about two hundred meters slowly east, a street, into a large courtyard . In a six-storey brick front of the building, the day Phoenix stopped, and said: to. This is an old residential buildings, 6 on the ground floor, there lived people. Some young Niao dill from the balcony upside up. The ground floor basement, a row of small window above the ground. Tianfeng a look around around and say a little has not changed, or was the old way. However, people have changed, the basement door signs from the days of Pong Fashion shop into a Shanghai boutique, said these words, the day the phoenix flash of self-deprecating look mouth, I do not know for themselves have had such a dull day, or secretly glad it all has finally become the basement of the last .2 The steep and narrow corridor, the more down to the more dark, damp musty an blowing. has to be down to the ground, only to see a ray of light seeped out from under the door. I knocked on the door of the voice was light, given Aunt amount of fat around the body, hands carry a soft tape measure. The girls are back to the door, As a long time without ventilation, the air inside the turbid smelly. shopkeeper Department of Zhejiang, with days considered as fellow Phoenix. They talked with Zhejiang words Jiliwala, I do not understand a word, can only look on from the judge .. .